I AM
My sociology teacher is brilliant, or just really funny. Either way, he keeps my attention in class and I enjoy that. He made us do this exercise in class the other day. 20 “I”s. I made one for class, but I turned it in and honestly don’t remember it. It wasn’t very good either.. so I’m making a new one. One I feel is a bit more honest. I think if we all had to make a list, we would put some truth down, and some of what we wish to be true. Maybe what we would want others to believe.
So here we go.
1. I think my brother is awesome, and I don’t want to ever lose the kind of relationship I have with him. I’m worried moving out may make it harder.
2. I want a tattoo. Not to look cool, or please anyone, but for me. Don’t worry, I’m not the kind of person to get a star and say it means something. It will be a good one. I still want my parents to like me after it =).
3. I have a really high mental pain tolerance. Basically I can handle stress for long amounts of time.. probably not a good thing.
4. I think my voice has gotten stronger, and it makes me really excited!
5. I don’t want chocolates or roses.. I want daisys, lovely daisys. They are beautiful.
6. I feel the need to say something when I’m angry, but usually I walk away. *If I do stay, please excuse my actions.
7. I still don’t know exactly what I want to do, but I’m realizing its not what you settle into, but what you try.
8. I wish I had just cut it off, people wouldn’t of been as hurt.
9. I don’t like a mess, but I seem to acquire them more often then not. Lets just say when I clean, its really good =)
10. I love my sister. I learned loving people from her, my heart has been broken for her more then any other person in my life. Not because of anything wrong, just because she is amazing.
11. I feel like sometimes as a musician people think I’m off in la la land. Yes I know, sometimes if you catch the end of a conversation about which key you need a song in and its a bunch of letters and crap its scary.. don’t worry, thats not all thats in this head.
12. I have many days that I want to escape everyone and everything and go think.. the beach is my spot of choice.
13. I have a lot of people speaking to me on a daily basis, only a few really shake me.
14. I actually like school. I’ll miss it for the consistent schedule it gives me for 4 months.
15. I can’t wait to meet my kids, I always joke that they’ll have colored hair and be rock-band champs, but really, they are gonna be a amazing.
16. I’ve tried to imagine life if I didn’t grow up in church, I don’t think I would’ve been a nice kid.
17. I seem like I’ve got it all together, but its chaos. Surprisingly not in a sad or overwhelming way, more like “This is living” kind of way.
18. I apparently like odd illnesses: had tubes in my ears to hear, shin splints, kidney stone, TMJ.. the ER is not cool.
19. I tend to hold on to people.. and I also have conversations with people and I’ll pull one line they say out of 100 and think about it all day long.
20. My relationship with God is always changing, for good, because even bad is good with Him.
ya. _T
