Scraped

More honesty.

 

I found this quote the other day: “Our greatest glory consists not in never failing, but in rising every time we fall.”We.. I am not pefect. Nor do I desire to be. I need to write this. Give me a second.

•  I have broken every value and guideline I had for myself, all within a few months. I told myself I would never betray peace for memories. I told myself I would allow people to speak into my life and would hear what they had to say. I told myself I wouldn’t let anything become more important to me then faith. I told myself I would always listen for that still small voice that I know is true. I said to myself, “You have a path for your life, unlike any other.” I told myself I would fight for more then just what I thought was true. I told myself I would make a choice and stand on that choice.

And even with all that… there are a few things that I know still ring within me.

 

I have loved with all of my heart, that I know is true. I have hoped and dreamed for something big. I have looked to the skies and wondered why. I have failed people and myself. And with that statement.. now I am trying to rise. Scraped and bruised, I honestly have no motivation or desire. But I know I am not meant to lay on the ground forever. 

 

I know in my heart that I am not the type of person to go back on decisions, which is why I believe I am on a journey. One that helps more then just me, but the people I love. It helps me to find it again.. peace.

 

I also know that this is right. And I’m sticking with it this time.

 

 

– Yet another word-spill.. =] be blessed.